Why I Am The Way I am

Ok so quite a few times I always run into people who don't understand who I am or why I do the things I do.

Now take note I am not writing this as a pitty party for my self. But I feel like I hold to much back because I think I'm making up excuses.

Fact one I hardly ever share my true feelings and when I do they can be a little harsh. I grew up with parents telling me to suck it up and get over it , that well it's life. I don't blame my parents but it's what I have learned.

Fact 2 I do speak what is on my mind, whether it to be harsh or not. Because I believe that we shouldn't beat around he bush.

Fact 3 I sometimes break fact 2. Because well I don't want any hard feelings because there always will be when the truth comes out.

Fact 4 I take pride in what I buy, and well i get VERY upset if someone uses me. Because I work for what I need and I work very hard for it, and unlike most college students I have absolutley no one I can fall back on to help me finish college, not parents or grandparents.

Fact 5 I cannot stand a selfish person, APPRECIATE what you have I try my hardest to because I have a roof over my head and a job to go to.

Fact 6 Your home life does not define who you are. You grow up to make your own choices.

Fact 7 People need to realize peope make heir own choices whether they are good or not. If they have nothing to do with you, you just need to let them make those choices and learn from them. No matter how mad you get it will NOT change a single thing.

Fact 8 I do not like people telling me to how to live my life. I am an adult with the same responsibilies, and the knowledge to know right from wrong. I have 1 parent now and she trusts the decisions I make.

Fact 9 I am beginning to realize why I get along with guys better. I HATE DRAMA.

Fact 10 I am beginning to despise the idea church has turned into. It's not about what clothes you wear or the car you drive, it's about God and the people you worship with. MONEY HAS DESTROYED THE CHURCH.

Fact 11 I have lost very important people in my life and I am STILL getting over it. People who had a major impact and now without them it leaves a major gap.

Fact 12 My friends are my family, because family sometimes act like things are an obligation but friends are there because they want to be.

Fact 13 Do not judge, because when you are pointing a finger you should be helping them up.

Fact 14 Do not dwell in your own self pitty and make excuses for the state you are in. Only you can make your happiness. NO ONE else.

Fact 15 Please respect what I believe. If you want to be in my life you do not have to believe what I do but making fun of it and disrespecting it does not fly. I'm sorry.

This wasn't ment to step on toes but to let you see what I see

Scream

Can you hear that?
Can you hear it??
Its building up
Consuming my entire being
I hold it in
But it only controls me
Pausing at my throat
It renders my speech useless
My heart has stopped
My breaths have quickened
No one is to know
But I must release it
It must ESCAPE!!!